I can’t let my patients see

I almost broke down in the theater tonight.
I fought back tears as the main character tried to navigate a confusing, capricious world.
I fought back tears when his parents argued about how best to care for him.
I fought back tears as he bravely sought answers to tough questions.
I almost broke down in the theater tonight.

I started an elective in Palliative Care last week.
I remained supportive but stoic as my patients tried to navigate a confusing, capricious existence.
I remained supportive but stoic when their families worried how to best care for their loved ones.
I remained supportive but stoic as they bravely sought answers to tough questions.
I started an elective in Palliative Care last week.

I almost broke down in the theater tonight.
I can’t let my patients see.

It’s the only model I have learned.
This is how a doctor behaves.

Right?

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4 comments

  1. During my time as a mental health nurse, I often let my patients see that I was upset in response to their pain and often their seeing that response made them feel believed when others who believed them just as much didn’t manage to communicate that belief in an effective way.

    I am not saying that my way was right and theirs was wrong, just that for me it was the right way at those times. I recognise that there were patients for whom seeing their key workers as, “strong” was more important than seeing an emotional response.

    If I had stayed in Adult Nursing, I suspect I would have shared the effects of the work with my patients there too sometimes but again, not the right thing for all staff or for all patients.

    Dave

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